Hey God,
it's me again.
i'm ready this time.
let's do it.
together that is.
I can't do it it
not by myself.
I've tried that.
that plan failed
completely.
"When you are truly in love, you go to great lengths to be with the one you love."
Francis Chan
i'm not truly in love, i'm not going to great lengths. but this is a process for me. it's a fighting battle to love the one who i'm told not to love. because he doesn't fit the bill, the american lifestyle bill. but he is all I need.
His promises are better, the the worlds.
His love is forever, this present world will be destoyed.
He, HE, HE needs to be my everything.
wow, yesterday was quite the experience.
I think I became an adult yesterday.
I feel like I'm not the same person I was 48 hrs ago.
which sounds so crazy.
yesterday was so flippin' crazy.
& for the first time I actually though, Yea God, I can do this.
so much so that the thought crossed my mind that I may want to go away to college next year.
but I think I changed my mind on that one.
I had so many emotions yesterday.
at one point I felt like I was going to burst into tears.
I grew up in that second.
the thought that went through my head "Oh God, please fix this."
and guess what...
He did.
ah!
another 12 hr day of classes tomorrow, Yea God, I can do that.
"You have value, really and truly, because of who you are, not because of who knows you. Or who you know. You don’t need to be someone else to be great. You don’t need to compare yourself to anyone, because no one is like you.
And finally, consider what you are running after. There is no peace found at the end of that road. In fact, there are just more landmines, fake friends, and hands trying to pull you down.
It is for this reason that God cares much more about our character than our success."
Andrew Schwab
"You have value, really and truly, because of who you are, not because of who knows you. Or who you know. You don’t need to be someone else to be great. You don’t need to compare yourself to anyone, because no one is like you.
And finally, consider what you are running after. There is no peace found at the end of that road. In fact, there are just more landmines, fake friends, and hands trying to pull you down.
It is for this reason that God cares much more about our character than our success."
Andrew Schwab
it's funny how music brings memories back.
i'm putting together my playlist for this fall,
I have one for every season, I love re-living old memories
good memories, I found a song from two years ago.
when I first started taking classes, I put it on my
playlist for kicks and giggles, I don't even like that
kind of music anymore. funny how your tastes can
change in that short amount of time.
Oh God, I think I'm ready for this :)
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- “If the praise of others elates me, or if the blame of others depresses me, then I know nothing of Calvarys love.” –Amy Carmichael