i wrote this a few months ago on my blog....
right now i am disappointed, in myself, and my lack of discernment.

recently i have been reading through Corinthians...once again this morning i was encouraged by God's great love. It was one of those mornings, when my first inclination was not to open the bible, but busy my self with other things.

& once again i was putting all my hope in things, not in my Father who is unchanging.

2 Corinthians 4:8&9
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

vs. 16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

you know what my favorite is???

carrying my books around, not just any books nooo but a good 30 pounds of books...it makes me feel smart :)

you want to know what i think?


oh nvm

you don't want to know what i think

i don't even know what to think

it's a crazy thing called Life I guess...

they even made a game out of it

to leave you with a picture:



Ming and I strongly recommend this book
even though we haven't read it...but don't take our word for it, read it yourself...then tell us how you like it

haha maybe i should audition to be on Reading Rainbow (anyone remember that show?)


Why do we like to take pictures in bookstores...."don't ask!"

My God is so great...
so great that there isn't one thing you could say about Him to downgrade who He really is...and you want to know something...there just isn't one word that can sufficiently sum up His being...and you want to know something else that is amazing, my situation seems pretty crappy to me right now...but for some reason He has chosen to give me joy about it. The kind that makes you want to jump off of a cliff and dive into His ocean of pure love

that is what is so marveling...


& i can't remember a trial or pain he did not recycle to bring me gain...

i wish i could say some things, i wish that when i said them they could come out right, i wish they could come out in love, and genuine care. I really wish my heart would just scream the truth so my tongue wouldn't have a chance to mess it up. i don't think i will ever be able to say it though...

it's funny how these little things make me run for my savior even harder...

in it's own funny way though it brings me joy...

ha. that made no sense to you did it?
that's okay...maybe one day you will understand...

i just can't tell you now...it just won't come out right

i'm so selfish....