I believe today that my conduct is in accordance with the will of the Almighty Creator.
--Adolf Hitler


That's strong. So if Hitler believed that he was doing the right thing, he was killing innocent people. How much easier is it for me, to think the wrong things I am doing are right in God's eyes. Makes me think. Just another reason, to draw closer to the Savior, to seek his heart, not my agenda.



I picked Hitler for my project because of that quote, I want to know why, why he did what he did.

"My hope lives not because I am not a sinner, but because I am a sinner for whom Christ died; my trust is not that I am holy, but that in being unholy, He is my righteousness. My faith rests not upon what I am, or shall be, or feel, or know, but in what Christ is, in what He has done, and in what He is now doing for me." - C.H. Spurgeon

boredom leaves me no choice but to bask in the sun. the Son of Love. to read of what love is.

and suddenly I want to learn more. to love more. to serve more. to let my heart overflow with prayers of praise and thankfulness and confession and intersession.

and suddenly things that might have been important, well, they aren't.

and i realize that there should be no such thing as boredom. that there can be no such thing as boredom. it's a choice you make.

One of my friends got married
she's almost 18
you know why she got married, because she had to.
She made some choices and those choices are now affecting the rest of her life.

she was the normal, girl
she was the spunky Christian girl.
she was the girl who stayed in the nice little square box
she was the girl who didn't play with fire, because she knew better
but this guy came along, and then things slowly started to change
slowly and hardly noticeably.
and now she's married.

I just had a revelation.

the thesaurus is my new best friend.

"For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it."

Hebrews 12:11

Deuteronomy 30:11-14
Now what I am commanding you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach. It is not up in heaven so that you have to ask, "Who will ascend into heaven to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it" Nor is it beyond the sea, so that you have to ask, "Who will cross the sea to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it"; No, the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it.

if you know much about me you know I'm obsessed with my dog.
I practically define the word obsessed.
we spend a good part of the day together.
he sits on my lap while I do school
we sleep together
we eat together (literally)
I love this dog, more than anything I own.
yes, even my red phone.

Ok, that's enough about that.
Recently i've fallen in love with dog clothes, yes I am one of "them"
but I don't like dress my dog everyday, hardly ever, but I still love dog clothes, usually just looking at them satisfy my love for them.
mainly because they are so darn awesome, but I had to get this shirt for snickers when I saw it.

I think we have distorted the word love.
I don't think you really know what love is for a very very long time.
Like the people that have been married for years.
My grandparents have been married for almost 60.
I think they are starting to understand what the word love means.
I think they really figured it out this past year.


then there is a heavenly father's love.
that love no one can figure out.
it's always there
never failing
always secure
warm
painful
restful
purifying
this love, has so many dimensions

60 years is a long time.
a very long time.

My God saved the day
He has made a way
For Me.
Even when it seems impossible
I will grin and bear it!

because he is enough
he is my portion.
Forever!

He is the one
Who has saved us
He is the one
Who embraced us
He is the one who has come
And is coming again
He’s the remedy

James 1:19
My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.


I think I need this plastered on the inside of my brain, i've been quoting this verse to myself more than once this week...

Oh, lift up your voices
And lift up your heads
To sing of the love
That has freed us from sin

I love the feeling when you know you are completely relying on God, it's an amazing feeling.


Guess what I did with my morning.
ok well you already knew.

So this test, yea well it took three hours.
yes three hours.
that's what I was thinking too.

I walk in to the testing center, and get my test, and the man says. "You know it's funny, I have heard this is a pretty hard test, I have had students take like 3-4 hours to take this thing"

My first thought was oh, yea that's really funny, thanks for that.
and when I got up three hours later I think he realized maybe that wasn't the best choice of words. I could just tell by the grin on his face. I'm sure he was thinking in his head "oh, done so early?"

and on the way home I worshiped, because I was so happy it was ever, and God helped me get through it. to reward myself I took the day off. ha!

I cling to you;
and you right hand upholds me.

Because you love is better than life, I will praise you.

God, I need your help this morning, please.
Calm me. and help me to be smart for the next few hours.

I am very purposeful about my tests.
Especially the big ones.
Like Biology, ick.
and what makes it worse is I have no clue what's going on when I read the textbook(s).
I'm clueless when it comes to biology.
C.L.U.E.L.E.S.S

I have to add some excitement to my tests though, since they are so dreadful.

First of all, I ALWAYS use the same pencil if I hate the class/test.
For example I have used this pencil for Math, Public Speaking (didn't hate the class, just the teacher) and now Biology.
So this thing has some history. And it give me this special dread any time I use it, funny how that works. You would think I would stop using it. But this pencil actually got me a 100% one time, so not all the feelings are bad.

You see that bag in the picture, yea well that's my school "tote" I have feelings toward that thing too, but that's for another time.

So tomorrow at 8 Am i'm going in to take this test. My bags are packed literally, all four of my Biology books, yes four. Crazy. I've been dreading this thing for a week, and really can't wait to get it over with. Something about the sound of "testing center" makes me want to cringe.

I'm learning what Your grace really means

God takes away the world, that the heart may cleave more to Him in sincerity.

—Thomas Watson

I have this countdown you see, till the end of my classes, yes I am being totally serious.

and let me tell you how liberating it is to tear off a number and see one less day of school work left. it is very liberating.

now don't you all go thinking that I hate school, because that's the truth.
past semesters I have enjoyed going to class, and getting A's. Yes. but I don't think those A's will be rolling around as easy this semester, let me tell you.

Father,
please protect them, please protect their houses, protect their families, and most of all protect their love for you.