Posted by Lauren

here's to another semester at CP
here's to a long day
here's to two teachers that don't know how to properly speak English
here's to learning how to read lips while taking notes
here is to another FABULOUS semester of being patient, non-judgmental, and being joyful!

here's to it
*cling of the glasses*

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questions with no answers  

Posted by Lauren

I have a question.
when do you get to the point when you start learning from past mistakes?
wait I have another one.
when do you permanently die to yourself?
sorry, let me just make a list.
do you ever start trusting, and stop worrying?
why is it so surprising when a prayer gets specifically answered?
and is it so wrong to be happy that it got answered?
i don't think so, but then i wasn't the one the prayer got directed too
they would know
yes they WOULD know

i decided pain is pretty lovely
no not that kind of pain, like gun shots and blood
no guys i didn't change my mind about that
but the kind of pain that changes someone
that makes them better because of it

maybe i'm knee deep in denial...

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oh, one more thing  

Posted by Lauren

My blog will be going private in a week. So, if you read my blog, OR want to continue reading my blog, post a comment or e-mail me and I will add you.

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in that moment, i was so wrapped up with being happy, nothing mattered  

Posted by Lauren


so i'm sitting here with my -black coffee, wonderful-beverage-in-a-red-mug
it's cold outside, and it's friday.

i feel nice inside.
i feel like baking, and petting my dog and not thinking too hard. just being here is enough.

odd, how i can be in a horrible mood, and everything bothers me, and then realizing everything that bothered me were things that weren't worth being bothered about.


maybe i'm not cut out for the things i want to be cut out for. do you think you can want something so much that it makes it possible? even though. i don't. but i think thats alright.

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Posted by Lauren

when do you go from death to life...
while still living,
does that point come?

when do you call a living person, dead?
or is it a dead person, dead?

you know maybe it is a blessing to go wile you are still young
i mean, what does this life have anyways?
give me Jesus!

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death can be so inconvenient  

Posted by Lauren

::: it was good, then bad, then good, and now it's worse
:: why?

you want to know what i think?
of course you don't, but you'll find out anyway.

i think death is the worst thing from the fall.
sin doesn't seems so bad compared to death.
you see there is forgivness, and it's immediate.

::but death, it sounds so....ugly::

as much as you can say you are sure what happens after death, you can never be so sure.
isn't there always a doubt.
it would seem to me there is
isn't it easy to have faith, when it isn't so pressing to have it?


some people go really easy
other people
well, it's rough

how could something so beautiful be so scary?
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
but then what do i know? really, what do i know?

how do you pray, do you pray for them to leave, or do you pray for them to stay?
do you pray for it to be easy?
or for it to be hard?


oh, but we will dance on the golden streets, with new hearts, new feet, with a new love
not with the old conditional love
we will dance!



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Posted by Lauren

so i care. so what?
so i care less. now what?
--
how hard do you try before you give up?
--
tear down another facade
draw another line
build another wall
paint another face
--
here's to the something new. here's to the already-been-used.
--

if only emotions had an "on/off" button. or life had a fix button. or a focus button. or a huge flashing arrow would appear, pointing in the right direction.

--
and when do you stop caring, when does it become dulled?
when?

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