i'm going to try to do this post somewhat level-headed. not in one of those emotional whirlwinds that i tend to fly myself into. that's not really fair to you.

or maybe i'll try and pretend i don't care again. this feeling can't last this long. (but the next feeling can't last that long either).



to the rest of you: "take this with a grain of salt". i hate cliche's as much as you, but they illustrate a point. i think. so to lighten everything up once more:

children, please don't ever use the library as a cover-up for a date. especially if you don't read.

but some how it's new every single second.

Ephesians 4:13-16

Until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming.
Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ.
From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.

most things aren't an adventure, but you can make them one. i like that. there are a lot of reasons why.

that night i couldn't sleep. i laid and just thought. thought about the things that you don't have time to think about when your busy, those stupid things. i laid flat on my back, and felt myself breathing. i heard my heart beating and the funny noises that my stomach was making. i heard the rain and the wind outside. i could hear trees creaking, and i could hear my imagination. i could hear it all at once. i don't know what that means, i wouldn't mind if it didn't mean a thing.

that's all, i'm ok with pointless if you are.