what am i living for?  

Posted by Lauren

don't tell me it's never crossed your mind
'cause i know it has

because when i take a long enough time to look at my life, i see all my blessings.
and why shouldn't i be happy?
no i don't think happy is the right word


there are people dying out there. people whose lives are messed up. people who don't want to live. people who don't want to wake up in the morning. people who don't want to go home at night. people that need answers, who need to be loved, people who need hope, who need a Savior

but what am i doing about it?
nothing
absolutely nothing,

there are millions of blessed people in North America.
but we still go to our same schools, our same jobs, our same homes day after day and nothing changes. i think about how many people sit at the same job day after day. i'm no good with the numbers, but there are tons. some of them real practical, real great, real life changing. some of them not at all. so there are a bunch of us in the same routine day after day. okay, so i'm wrong. things do change. but it feels like we could be doing more. not routinely live our lives as millions of people die. often needlessly. although, there are tons of people right here that go through huge struggles. i recognize that. i want to help them too. it seems that there are so many demons. so many bad things out there that we all go through. we all have our struggles. our hard times.

oh God must look down and laugh
i don't know pain, i don't know hardship
and I don't know true joy
in a funny way it's kind of aggravating

sometimes i want to feel what Jesus felt
i want his compassion
his grace
his humility
his love
his patience
his sympathy
his joy
i just want to feel it,
because i think it would be the best feeling yet.

but here i will sit, talking about it, but that's as far as it will go...
i'm changing that
tonight.


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1 comments

You listened to part 7 didn't you.

October 10, 2007 at 10:40 PM

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