I don't know.
I've just not been myself for months
yes months.
and I am sure not many of you noticed, but I know I had some points when it showed.
I lost the joy, I lost the enthusiasm, and I really lost the gratitude.

I was just so sick of the godlessness in people that claimed to have it
and that's no excuse, no none at all.
but I became just like them.

My life with God, was failing. Failing, and after rescuing it, I know what I was missing.
It became a habit rather then a addiction.
It became something I never should have let it become.
It became too routine.

And as I found out when my God life fails, so does everything else.
So I'm sorry