You are so persuasive your so sure, you got stories, and a special song, you got everybody convinced, but in your heart, in your mind, there is a doubt, and the doubt is linked to that one person, those two people, who had nothing to gain by telling you what you wanted to hear and they told you what you needed to hear, and you know they told you the truth. & you avoid them, because you know, you know, what you are trying to do.

-Andy Stanley: Listen and Learn

When peace rushes like a river in my heart
when sorrow departs into the wind
no matter my worries, or my portion, you have taught me to say
it's ok. it's ok, in my heart

So much to do...so little time.

Only 16 more days.
I can, I will, make it.

It's only 16 more days.

I had this moment,
this moment where I realized.



How blessed I really am.


I like those moments, with the pretty lights, and slow music.
Yea I like them

I can't explain it.
but I want to so bad
I wish I could figure it out my self
Sometimes it feels so good.
but other times is feels so...so... wrong?

I like this confusing place.
It reminds me I don't know everything
and i'm still learning
and I will always be learning.

people are difficult you know. difficult to understand.

this happens every winter. I'm starting to like winter because of it.

I think it's about time I do a post that's more then a sentence long..
so here it is.

my life has changed dramatically in the last month.
maybe that's an understatement

i have been ok with things that previously bothered me.
i've been taught a lot of lessons. some i'm going to have to be taught again.

I love this feeling of charting new paths.
but i'm also scared, and anxious

for the first time in probably three years i'm happy where I am at, and ready to move forward.

I'm tired of complacency, of laziness, i'm done with it.
I'm done with a lot of other things too.

I just learned a fancy word for chewed food.

I have an announcement to make...


oh wait.

snap.
it'll have to wait

my heart was broken last night.
how could you believe in my Jesus, but not believe you are going to heaven
"i'm not one of the 140,000"
ohh

what do you say... "I'm sorry?"

I have come to realize that you are exactly like your family.
as much as you don't want to admit it everything you do echos them.
it cannot be denied.

I have also come to realize that isn't a bad thing, unless...

Seize the moment. Remember all those women on the Titanic who waved off the dessert cart.
- Erma Bombeck

so apparently i'm in a relationship now...

you like me? holy
you want to hang around with me? holy
you want to be one of the children of God? holy
I have declared my intentions, I'm holy
I don't like sin.
I don't like lies.
I don't like what it does to people.
I don't like the thief.
I don't like wasted lives.
and I don't like wrecked hearts.
My intentions are clear.
I like truth and wholeness and purity and beauty and health and righteousnesses and goodness and fullness that's what I like
because that' who I am
my intentions are holy
-Louie Giglio