I care to much when I fail, and I try to hard to get people to like me.

I am worried about having the popular opinion.

and sometimes I thrive in going against the grain to just go against the grain.

I often enjoy arguing with my fellow brothers and sisters just to show how lofty my thoughts can be. and too often these conversations bring nothing but dishonor to the one I am trying to honor.

I try to make more of myself to build up my image, and I write it off as building up God's image. but He needs no help. especially not my selfish ambitions

none of this is right.

I have completely missed the point.

some people have their platforms that define what kind of Christian they are.

I don't want to be one of them, I want them all to define who I am as a Christian.