I had this feeling, deep down.
didn't want to admit it was there,
or maybe I didn't really know it was there.

just a feeling that something wasn't right

I learned a lot of things today
and it left me thinking
the kind of thinking you do when you question something

It made me extremely grateful for my family.
No matter how crazy, I love them.
Because humanly speaking they will always be there for me
No matter what.

You know that statement I made a while back...

"I have come to realize that hearts are complex and we’re all liars."

I think that was todays key phrase.
it's amazing what you think through, when you have nothing to do but think.

I had a wonderful evening.
really wonderful.
Joy is in the eye of the beholder.
Father, you are so good!

Afraid? Of what?
To feel the spirit's glad release?
To pass from pain to perfect peace,
The strife and strain of life to cease?
Afraid- of that?

Afraid? Of what?
Afraid to see the Savior's face
To hear his welcome, and to trace
The glory gleam from wounds of grace?
Afraid- of that?

Afraid? Of what?
A flash, a crash, a pierced heart;
Darkness, light, O Heaven's art!
A wound of his a counterpart!
Afraid- of that?

Afraid? of what?
To do by death what life could not
Baptize with blood a stony plot,
Till souls shall blossom from the spot?
Afraid- Of that?
-Safely Home

No one to fear him. No one to revere him. No one to hear him. No one to think about him.

He who had claimed to be savior was forever without a savior. Ignored and insignificant. Empty and embittered and regretful. Without a following. Without a heart. Without a hope.