O what blessed thing it is to lose one's will. Since I have lost my will I have found happiness. There can be no such thing as disappointment to me, for I have no desires but that God's will might be accomplished. Christians might avoid much trouble if they would only believe what they profess... that God is able to make them happy without anything but Himself. They imagine that if is such a dear friend were to die, or such and such a blessing removed, they should be miserable, whereas God can make them a thousand times happier without them. To mention my own case, God has been depriving me of one blessing after another, but as every one was removed He has come in and filled up its place and now, when I am a cripple and unable to move, I am happier than ever I was in my life before or expected to be, and if I had believed this twenty years ago I might have been spared much anxiety.


Edward Payson from More Love to Thee

God is so unexpected. and that is what I completely love. at one point I thought if I weren't to get this one wish this one dream, I would be over. life would be miserable. God would have failed to make me happy.

God doesn't fail.

you know that. I know that.

and that is what I love so much, that the twist in the story isn't so much a twist but a downright fall out. I feared getting older as this new change in my life came. can you believe that, I feared it. but with this change comes a whole new perspective unfolding daily. it's the "gift a day club."

it's like God's 365 day calendar of new perspectives, ones that I could not comprehend a day ago. and tomorrow's perspective would sound outrageous to me right now. and I love that.

God doesn't get old. don't let anyone fool you like that.

time doesn't encompass Him.

He knows everything that I will ever learn, and His wisdom will always far excel what I won't even learn till that happy day. you know my favorite part. "where will dance on the golden streets, Oh we will dance"